Recently I needed to rewrite my
testimony. So since my mom kept bugging me to write a blog, I
thought I would use it.
The first time I remember hearing the
gospel story of Jesus was when I was very young at home. My mom and
dad told me that Jesus loved me and died for me. I believed them and
asked Jesus to forgive my sins and live in my heart. As I grew
older, and reheard the gospel story in church, Bible school, and at
home I understood it more and more. When I was ten, I decided to get
baptised and that is when I think I truly understood what Jesus did
for me and I wanted to live my whole life for Him.
As I grew older, I fell in love with
hearing the Gospel told, and I wanted to tell it to others. Every
year we would have Backyard Bible Club at our house, and I decided I
wanted to teach others the Gospel too. So, when I was old enough I
went to camp and started teaching at clubs. I remember at camp that
I was freaking out about how in the world am I going to do this. Who
is going to listen to me? I had to realize I needed to place my
trust in the LORD. It was then, I realized that the people I was
sharing the gospel with didn't need to hear from me. But instead
they came to hear from God, and God would use me and speak through
me. On the last day of camp, we went to a local park to share the
gospel with strangers. It turned out that one of the couples I spoke
with were already believers in Jesus, but they really encouraged me
to keep at it. Another woman I spoke with had recently just accepted
Jesus as her savior, and we were able to encourage her in her new
faith, and she in ours. That first summer of teaching five day
clubs, we taught lots of different children from lots of different
backgrounds. It was exciting because at each club at least one child
asked Jesus into their hearts. It was a real picture to me of how
God loves all people. That same year I was privilege to help with a
Good News club after school at the local school in my neighborhood.
It was exciting to see these students in the neighborhood and be able
to reach out to them and have a relationship with them.
It was shortly after this that I
experienced my first real tragedy in life. Our family arrived home
from vacation to find out that my closest friend's dad had died. It
was the first time in my life when I needed God to give me the
strength to comfort someone else. I had a hard time letting go of my
anger at God for allowing this tragedy to happen to her and her
family. It turned out that she and her family became my strength and
helped me see how God was with us all. God used this tragedy to
strengthen our faith and friendship. I am so grateful to God for
allowing me to go through this with her, and I know that because of
it, she and I will always be close.
As my fifteenth birthday arrived, I
prepared for a special day. It was during this time of preparing
that I was able to let go of all my anger, and begin to worship God
again. As I prepared to share my special day with family and friends
God healed my heart. As I gave a speech of dedication to the Lord
and sang to Him it was so overwhelming as I remembered all that he
had brought me through.
It was near this time, that I went for
my annual heart check up. This was an amazing visit, in that the
doctors told me and my mom that I no longer had a hole in my
heart(that I had since birth). This was cool to me, how God not only
healed my broken heart spiritually, but also physically.
The very day after my big party, my
whole family moved to Pennsylvania. I knew God was with us and I
trusted him with this move. But even though I trusted God with the
move, I still at times didn't like being there. God took our family
through a lot during our time there. We switch our school, and then
we switched it back. We learned that God's Word held all the
answers, so we as a family started to really dig into it. Even
though we only lived in Pennsylvania a year, it changed our family
because we had to be there for each other. I missed my Michigan
friends, but God comforted me and I knew I wasn't alone.
When we first came back to Michigan we
had to stay at my grandma's house for a while. It was really tough
to feel like we had to depend on them and that we were intruding on
their lives. It was hard not having a home ,and know that the home I
had lived in most of my life was just around the corner. Knowing
that someone else lived in that house now, was really tough.
It was really exciting though when God
blessed our family with a new house. It was just the right size, and
closer to dad's work. Finding a new church was extremely hard
because the church we went to in Pennsylvania had really been their
for us. As we attended different churches, I realized I was judging
others for not being at the same place in their journey as I was.
God really humbled me and made me realize that just because I am at a
different place in my walk with the Lord, I am no better than anyone
else. We are all just sinners saved by grace. Now God has given me
opportunities to help with another after school program near our
home. I am excited to share the gospel again with children and reach
out to others.
So I am looking forward to see how God
is going to use me in this new season of life. I am getting ready to
go to camp again this year and teach all summer. I can't wait to see
what God has for me and who he is going to bring into my life.
TylerAnn, thanks you for writing this and posting it on the blog. I know that there were a lot of feelings you had to deal with a you remembered some of the most difficult times in your life. But, I am glad you realize that God is with you, and you move forward in your walk with Him, he will never leave you. I love you. MOM
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